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How Yoga Made Me Fat But Happy

How Yoga Made Me Fat But Happy

I hate the gym. Late last year, I hated everything about it – the surrounding, the people, my routine – everything. I used to say that the gym is my happy place. During that point, I couldn’t say that it’s true.

By all definitions, I think I was really really fed up. So much so that I had to leave. I was willing to become part of the dreadful gym statistics (50% of all new health club members quit within the first six months of signing up).

I looked for other activities--something different--something better.

Right about that time I found Crossfit, I tried it out. Did the beginner’s course, joined the daily workouts and the competitions. It was fun, but it wasn’t what I was looking for.

Then New Year came…I set a goal: I will be gentler to my body: I will listen to it and be mindful of the signals it’s giving me. 

"Your body is an absolute mirror of your mind. As you worry, your body shows it. As you love, your body shows it. As you are overwhelmed, your body shows it. As you are angry your body shows it. Every cell of your body is being allowed or resisted by the way you feel.
'My physical state is a direct reflection of how I feel',
instead of
'How I feel is a direct reflection of my physical state'."

As a first step, I decided to consult a chiropractor to undergo a 3-week corrective alignment program. During the process, I wasn’t allowed to do any heavy lifting. No squats, deadlifts, no nothing. I took it as an excuse not to come back to my gym.

The only activity left for me was yoga. And that’s what I did. I studio hopped. I tried four yoga studios in Makati area. For the first time in a long time, I was enjoying myself again. For some reason, yoga brought me this sense of calm.


Yoga brought me this sense of calm


People were noticing the changes in me. They told me I look happier, brighter. Some even told me I was blooming. It was actually nice hearing people’s compliments and it felt good until some people started commenting about my weight.

Someone even jokingly asked me if I was pregnant. I tried ignoring it but it stings a bit. I’ve been maintaining a healthy weight for the last seven years and now I’ve gained it all back. 

I knew that moment that I had to come back to the gym, to my old routine, and give up yoga due to schedule conflict (after office workout). So that’s what I did, I went back to my gym and hired my old trainer back.

Fun fact: Among health club members, roughly 13.5% use personal trainers. Most personal training users are between the ages of 18 and 44--and I'm part of that age range :P

The first month was tough. It was as if I was a total beginner. I couldn’t lift heavy, I get tired easily and I lost all the endurance I gained. But I carried on. I continued with the program (both diet and exercise) and soon enough I started seeing results.

I was starting to enjoy working out again but I felt like something was missing. I was missing yoga.

I started looking for online yoga classes, something that I could do at home. I found this amazing teacher, Lesley Fightmaster, thru youtube. 

Her class takes around 20 to 30 minutes. I do it every morning before taking my breakfast. I have to wake up 30 minutes earlier than my regular waking hours but it’s a change worth taking. I’m happy to say that somewhat I’ve found my workout balance – yoga in the morning and strength training at night. 


It all began with a goal of listening to my body and then trying things out. See what works and what don’t. Experimenting. Having fun. Until finally, I found yoga and fell in love with it. With that I’ve found my workout balance. Here’s to finding your own balance and happiness. Namaste!



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Statistics Source:  IHRSA Health Club Consumer Report 




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