To the girl who never fit in, the girl who has difficulty making new friends, the girl who has been called names, this one’s for you.
I know it’s tough being stuck in a place where you just want to hide, wishing you can melt into the background. I know how agonizing it is to be in a place where your capabilities are belittled and your dignity crushed, where you have to endure people who you think were your friends—only to find out that they're the same people who will stab you in the back. I know how excruciating it is to feel like all of this is never going to end—feeling like you're trapped in a mental prison where you can't escape the feeling of being helpless, anxious, and emotional torture.
At this point in your life, you’re probably trying to convince yourself that the world is still a beautiful place despite everything; but no matter how hard you try, you just can't force yourself to do it. I'm sure there are nights when you question yourself, thinking, "Why don't they like me? Is there a problem with me? What did I do for them to hate me this much? Do they even know the real me, or do they just hate their idea of me?"
As cliché as it sounds, believe me when I say there’s a light at the end of the tunnel and it will all get better. If I was able to do it (like many others before me), then you would be able to do it, too! It may seem difficult right now, but just hold on to the fact that even the toughest of times have an end. I know this because I've been exactly where you are right now.
I know how it feels like to be someone who doesn't easily fit in a group. How it feels to skip lunch or spend an entire break inside a bathroom cubicle so that no one will notice that I don’t have anyone to talk to or hang out with. I certainly know how it feels like to be that kind of girl who has so much love to give, but no one to give it to or share it with. But, thankfully, these testing moments don't last a lifetime. That's why it's important to hold on.
I want you to hold on because the day will come that you’ll get to meet people who will make you feel less alone and more empowered. These people will make you see that the world is beautiful—because they will accept you, embrace you, and love you for who you really are. They will inspire you to love yourself. And when you start loving yourself, you'll have the confidence to stand up to all those who belittle you.
It's always important to remember that you are loved, even if it doesn’t seem like it. You just have to look in the right places. So hang in there, girl! Better things are yet to come and all of this hurt won’t be in vain—it’s all meant to make you stronger.
When you look back on today in maybe a year or two, you’ll be amazed at just how much strength you have and how capable you are of handling something that almost broke you. It may take a while before you recover from this traumatic experience, but once you’re done going through all this, you’ll be surprised at how ready you are to face even tougher battles ahead. Chin up, buttercup! You've got this!
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